February 2012
25 posts
Illusion is truth, and vision is misleading
In my headphones
Nothing matters
Skies are blue and seas are green
Grass is soft and sunsets are vibrant
Nothing matters
Dogs bark and ponies gallop
Fish jump and rabbits scatter
The stars are lanterns and blankets
Nothing matters
And I watch it all go by enjoyingly
Nothing matters
I had a dream
That everything was straight
And lines were circles
Everything meant something
Nd ppl acted like all this matters
Happiness was worth more than booze
And money didn’t exist
And the ppl I loved
Always loved me back
Nd evry1 else
Well…they were happy too
Religion was only the topic of jokes
Cus evry1 knew
God wanted more for us
Education meant reading...
I’m a failure
But still a champ
In going down
Without a fight
Nd winning
Nonetheless
If u saw
From the top
U would feel at the bottom
Of it all
Cus its all so big
Nd I’m so small
On a plane
Of existence
Which never existed
Except to me
#CoolStoryBrosidenKingOfBrocean
I like a lot of ppl
I feel differently around different people
Is there something wrong with that?
I don’t think so.
It doesn’t mean that I love som1 more than other persons
But its a different type of love is all
Feel different around diff people
And some ppl I thought were my friends
R now on my list of “ppl 2 kill”
But u can’t let bad apples make u...
Fucked upp
fuckin bitches
Frat boy norm
Gettin them with that rag
Chlorophorm
Passed out bitches
All over the dorm
Wakin up demolished
After the storm
Don't Read This!!!
Summer nights when u get so smacked tht u walk home
Beaches at night
Bongs made of strange items
The hudson river
Friends tht count.
These r a few of my favorite things
Sometimes I get so sad that I feel like continuing...
Things are too easy. People change. Where did all the excitement go? Laughing is more difficult when tremors hang over your head. I don’t like the world nowadays. I wish suicide made everything better, but its doesn’t. And knowing that makes me more depressed.
When u don’t wana live but u don’t wana die, where can you go from there?
If u can u do. But what defines if u can? Who gives and who takes away?
You, I
51960 remember
Its easy to dream
Easy to aspire when u have nothing
Visualize it
Comin to
Fruition
U gon have 2 edify me brahhbrahh
Rollin Around just blazing thinkin to myself wow I gotta shit.
Don't judge other people based on their decisions...
Heed your own advice knuckle
Truth, evry1 u meet is just a random string of events. Belief, there is a reason u meet evry1.
Where do u distinguish tween True facts and Beliefs, sometimes beliefs explain things better than truth. So are lies truth?
Loathing life
Happy go lucky persona
So longa
Greetings nd smiles
Farewells and lies
Saying hello to heaven
And to earth many goodbyes
Just one of those days where u contemplate going home, taking a shower, shaving, brushing ur teeth, then hanging urself
Ik I’m a pathetic individual. But I’m vindictive too. It evens out
He looked at that girl carrying food, like he wanted to eat both of them.
The only way to achieve is to visualize what you...
Its easier to visualize shit if u have hopes and dreams. Havin hopes n dreams is easy when most things you’ve done are all for naught.
January 2012
45 posts
revenge will lead to life in prison
Money isn’t real. Its just paper. Its the concept of money. Think about it.
All u have to do is act like your cool
Nd u become cool
Because u don’t care wht other ppl think
So u are automatically cool
Nd no1 can tell u otherwise
Because other ppls opinions don’t matter.
If it doesn't hurt, then you're not doing it right
U make me smile
Even when ur hours awai
If ghosts do exist, it is a mathematical impossibility that fordham isn’t haunted
I will get into Harvard. I will. O God, I will.
Whenever you guys were around
U always made me feel stardom bound
And then one day I found
You wouldn’t be around
I didn’t speak
Made not a sound
Cus I kept calling God
An got leave a message after the pound
And I was just realizing
You wouldn’t be around
Growing up I would try to astound
Each day gone by
Getting grades that were high
…
Whenever you guys were around
U always made me feel stardom bound
And then one day I found
You wouldn’t be around
I didn’t speak
Made not a sound
Cus I was just realizing
You wouldn’t be around
Growing up I would try to astound
Each day gone by
Getting grades that were high
…
Sometimes I get so nervous
I wana scream
But bury myself under the blankets
And I wana yell
But I’m constricted to my mattress
And I get scared to do what I have to
But I will kill him
Even if my life changes
Pride vs forgiveness
Peace vs bloodshed
Soft melodic destruction
Unforseen hardships
Masked in the scent of evergreen
Families together
Gay piety for all
All except me
For I am uncounted
I am lost
I am without guidance
But I worry not
Mother mary looks after me
Death and Open Doors
Spinning gyroscope
Turning, turning,
Turning with the beat of my heart
Another year passed
And anew, one begins
Won’t time stop turning
Goodbye to my childhood
Kiss my fears goodbye
Times are changing
Life is to be had
So ill be on my way
Farewell to my father
Best of luck to my mother
I really must be leaving
Time is of the essence
My life amounts to nothing in actuality. Truth.
So what do I got to lose? Nothin. Its a comfort in sum ways. But a depressing weight on my shoulders. I know 2 things.
1 is I know nothing.
2 love is love.
A lonley soul
Sucking his teeth
But starving for attention
Strafing friends
Along university roads
Fleeting greetings
But lasting goodbyes
Let me go
I am free
Enlightened and outta control
Losing grasp with reality
While understanding alternate reality
4 dimensions now
I see what I shouldn’t
These people don’t know they r puppets
But all my wandering makes me an island
Feel like I’m walkin the tight-rope wit no circus net
Poppin percoset
I’m a nervous wreck
